I have only been doing this for a short time (3. Years but since October full time), and the stress and anxiety I feel with every hospitalization makes me crazy. I guess that is why they started hospice. I just feel like the hospital and NH steels so much time because I am not able to stay more than two- three hours because the chairs are so uncomfortable and I am thinking about what has to get done at home. Whenever she is in one of those settings I am always alone, because my hubby was so traumatized by his father's 2 year fight with cancer that he can't deal with hospitals. He has visited my mom on a couple of occasions, one totally unbeknownst to me until she told me, but when his mom was choosing to be taken off life support, he did not stay until she passed. So when that time comes, I know I will be there alone if she is in a hospital.