It was the worst thing ever to witness I keep thinking of the last moments of her gasping I can't get it out of my mind. I had a baby monitor so I can hear her, she was in hospice care in my house. She had been coughing for days my sister and I would give her tea and water and whatever else she needed. So this night she was coughing at around 2am cough here and there so I thought well maybe it will stop so finally I get my lazy butt out of bed to get her some tea and she is soaked in sweat and sort of slumped over to the right so I fixed her up in bed better and asked her if she felt ok because she was not looking very good, let me add here she had auto-immune problems so she had strange skin coloring she said that she needed to throw up gave her a tub and ran and got my sister by the time I came back in she was breathing strangely and that's when I knew called hospice and ran and got my husband and all three of us watched her struggle for air. I just keep thinking if I was there with her sooner or if I stayed in her room all night or if I made a bed on the floor. I had been in the hospital with her for 13 days by her side and 13 days at my house totally exhausted but still I feel I failed her. I just can't get a grip here. It's been a week now since she passed.