Today my mother was outside the house going through the trash bin( huge amounts of diapers w/ human feces, dog poop and cat litter poop, etc). She realized today she had lost her wallet and thought she had left it in a white plastic bag. I told her we would call around, etc but not to go through the trash! I then left to take my shower. when i came out that's when i realized what she was doing. This is not the first time this month she had dug through this biohazard waste. The other time she was looking for her pack of cigarettes.
I was so mad. I'm so tired of living like this. Constant cleaning fecal matter/germs off of everything. I don't know what to do. I just want to put a blanket over my head and sleep awhile. I'm exhausted..mentally and physically. Anybody think I'm overreacting? Or do i have a right to not to want to live like this! I really need help with my mom.. now her washing machine broke and im doing 180 pounds of laundry every week because her clothes and blankets are soaked with urine/feces..she takes her briefs off when im not home or in the middle of the night. I don't have the money to afford a caregiver. And if i did..she would likely run them off. I'm constantly mopping floors.At night she goes through two tranquility maximum briefs and the disposable chucks to the point it spills on the floor. She has a small dog and a cat..so I'm cleaning their crap up all day too. The pinnacle of my week was waking up late to a naked mother making a Keurig Coffee sitting in her own diareah that was all over the wheelchair seat, the floor etc. Took me three hours of clean up control. I've been doing this three years..her VA Drs..psychiatrist..social worker..nobody is helping me. She is cruel to me on top of everything else and i just want to leave but I'm afraid of her safety. She is my only family..but im very exhausted. Oh btw..she discharged herself out of three nursing homes. The last one she discharged ama and was on the street for 5 hours with no money wearing spoiled clothes in a wheelchair while i was 1000 miles away. Help..any advice??