I was Mom's caregiver for about 10 years, she had Parkinson's, the last 5 were very intense, 24/7. Here's the thing: I still don't want to be responsible for much of anything, even having to care for my dog and cats frustrates me...I was always the one to "take care of business" or the "problem solver" and felt a small degree of pride in being that way. Now? I'm like a different person! I don't handle things as well as I used to, get the shakes or start to cry when things go wrong, or can't make up my mind what to do, and that's not who I was. I went to Hospice grief counseling for a few months, which helped me to understand more about the grief process, but then the counselor kept asking me what I wanted to do with the "next chapter of my life" and I don't have an answer. Anyone else out there trying to figure out who you are now? Thanks.