I left country 5 months ago for my healing journey. It has been better than perfect! You can find my previous posts. I lived with my mother and was caregiver for several years. She fell last summer sustaining a sub dural bleed. Siblings moved in taking over out of guilt mostly, I believe. The situation became ugly. One particular vile brother turned her against me. He is a sick human and needs pity. He asked me in an email how it felt to know I would never see her again and that she did not want to see me!
I was evicted, scorned and treated so ugly that most people I tell the story to are appalled, as it is almost hard to comprehend. Six siblings stuck together. Not one came to my aid because they were ALL guilty of neglect when it came to her well being, leaving it up to me solely. I was t nothing to do with any of them, ever!
I have had a joyous journey, but now I return home which I dread. I think she is still alive. I cannot decide if I should try to see her or assume she is gone, since that was my acceptance 5 months ago. I have shed tears, over her, yet was fortunate to have so many happy, joyous moments meeting lovely people and being in happy places.
I keep asking the question if I should try to see her, but I truly do not know. She had a brain injury, as well as dementia. I just do not know how she will treat me and I feel I need to protect my own feelings. I do not plan to stay in area long, and will not attend any funeral services.
Ideas from anyone?