Today, my elderly father made such a fuss to get to the shops. Now we are all under quarantine, he is in his late 70's has had 2 surgeries for cancer, he is a diabetic, has high blood pressure etc.
I refused to take him, and he carried on and on.
It was an awful morning.
But I knew what he was doing. He wanted alcohol.
Eventually I told him I'd buy him whatever drink he wanted, which I did.
As the day progressed I began to worry that I was enabling him. He has been an alcoholic most of my life (in my 50's) and stopped for about 6 months because of the cancer.
But since lock down, he watches T.V all day. I don't know how much he understands about Covid 19 but I suspect he thinks he might as well "go out" doing what he wants.
I just feel complicit. Because this will not be the last time I will be buying alcohol for him.
When he drinks, he sleeps, then watches TV and talks to his friends on the phone. And he leaves me alone. Which is a great relief.
I feel a whole bundle of emotions, anger, frustration, guilt.
Any advise, or similar stories and coping strategies would be greatly appreciated.