I am struggling with progression, hard to handle, hard to please, sometimes scary and have been thinking I can't handle it anymore alternately doing ok, like a roller coaster. I find I am thinking a lot about it versus not having the heart to do it. How do I know what to do? I did have him a few half days a week at a Day center, which I thought worked well and I cherished the 4 hour respites. But the constant task of getting him up out of bed (and I mean task) and listening to the grumbling about going left me feeling like I had run a marathon by the time I took him there... so we quit that. Saving some money but no respite for me. I am trying to hold on with a support group, exercising and caring for myself, sometimes it seems to work and sometimes not. In total, I think how much better my life would be with placement but after 53 years of a loving relationship, I can't imagine going through with it. Really just at a loss which way to go, what can you tell me? Seems I am a willing but not able caregiver these days; want out but don't have the courage to do it, sorry to say. I really never thought I would get to this point. He was diagnosed 2-1/2 years ago but it was coming on a few years before that.