Mom has been on a steep downhill trajectory for the last couple weeks. She had been losing ground slowly for months...but this sudden downhill drop started about 2-3 weeks ago, and seems to be accelerating. This past week she lost the ability to walk. She can do nothing for herself now. She sleeps more than 20 hours a day, is losing weight at the rate of about 3 pounds a week! She was 134 in March...last week weigh in she was at 109. She simply will not eat. Even drinking is becoming more of an issue. Cannot get boost or shakes made with instant breakfast in her any more either. The doctor admitted he doesn't know why and he has nothing more to help. Hospice has been called. I have increased the caregiver hours and brought in a second one to help in moving Mom....it is a 2 person job now. Hospice really doesn't have a role here yet. But, they are providing nurses and cna when needed...and showers 2 times a week. They are also providing all of Mom's prescriptions at no cost....and medical supplies and equipment. And..no more trying to get Mom into the car for a doctor visit..they will come to her. I am not kidding myself. I know this is the final path to the end. Yet, I feel guilty. I know there isn't anyway to be 40 years old again. Yes, in my head I know that no one gets out of this life alive. Yet, I feel guilty. For those who have been down this road. How did you finally overcome this feeling? When my Dad died last year, it was quick and no one really expected it. I didn't feel this guilty. I knew his final months at home were among the happiest he had had in years. For Mom, this has been a painful journey for her. The stroke took so much of her life quality away from her, and now this slow downhill.