Mom is in one of those lucid times, which don’t happen very often, but when they do I spiral. I know that sounds awful, but it puts me so on edge, and I feel guilty for moving her into AL ... even though I know it is the best thing.
I spoke to a friend of mom’s the other day, and my step-sister yesterday, and mom is (very clearly, like she is as clear as we all are) telling everyone that she should be better and be home by November. 😦
When she isn’t clear, we go places like the casino and restaurants on the water, which she thoroughly enjoys. However, last night I told her that maybe we would go out on the island for lunch this weekend, and she very sharply said, ‘Yeah, whatever,” so I know she is going to tell me this weekend that she’s going back home. 😕
If she is still very lucid this weekend and does bring it up, I am thinking of telling her about the dementia and how we are going through this together. I know I have brought this sort of a situation up here before, but I don’t really have anyone to talk to about this. When I tell hubby about this recent situation, he is able to just laugh it off and say it will pass ... whereas I get so stressed out, I feel like I’m having constant panic attacks. 😞
As I’ve said before, I don’t tell her she has dementia, because I don’t want her to feel scared ... but I also know that I am so extremely stressed when she isn’t happy on why she can’t go back home. I’m thinking that if she seems very clear tomorrow, that it’s time I just shoot straight with her, so maybe she will understand and not get so mad about things.
Sorry for rambling. I’ve just been so stressed the last few days and needed to get it out of me. ❤️