My parents have never let me live; they control everything. They say I was perfectly raised until i was 18 when i went "off to college and learned the ways of the world. Then i become spoiled and question their authority." Actually, i saw friends' parents welcome young adults into the world - independent and free. I was so manipulated that i never knew this existed. I thought everyone's parents were calculating and controlling like mine. College was a real eye opener!
When i questioned them and suggested that perhaps they should strive to let me be more independent, they said not everyone had such good parents as I and when i was ready they would let me know.
They restricted me more. I moved out. They chased me down, called my work so much i got in trouble.
Everyday, they tell me they wish i was five again, when i knew how to behave like a proper lady. When i call them on it, they say it is a joke, what is wrong with me.
They are both in 90s now. The other day they said i would get to enjoy myself when they are gone and told me how much i will miss them. I know i won't. I have mourned for decades not having real parents.
They tell me this at least once a week, and i keep to myself how i feel, but soon i will not. It is jarseres everyday.
How horrible will i be when i just tell them they are a burden and i hope they die soon?