In 1,000 way too brief characters. Living with us daughter and two month old son, 85 year old ill father, 95 year old Hospice pt. mother. Mother-in-law died after 4 years care. I am 61 burning out with feelings I don't like. Sometimes I wish it would end so I can have MY life back. I don't mean it and beat myself up for selfishly wanting it and not always stopping to entertain them. Blessed none are difficult. Hospice quit sanity saving16 hours of respite a week. I can't afford $1,000 a month for in-home care. We are only children responsible for all. At our age, they traveled the world having a ball. When is it OUR turn? We are caring for parents and grandchildren. Later I will HATE myself for these feelings, already do. Have NEVER been short or abusive, they can't help it. Mom doesn't want to be a burden, I assure her she's not, yet inside a voice screams, "Yes you are!!" How awful! Do others have such thoughts? How do you find peace on the roller coaster from hell? Thanks for help.