My father passed away 7 years ago. My grandma's only son.I am the only grandchild. This past August i have come to rekindle my relationship with my grprts. I had a divorce from my spouse and was rejected from a potential job offer.
I had to take control of my life. It was spinning out of control.
Now I have a great relationship, career, and place to live. Live in Queens, NY.I dont live too far my grandparents house so i walk to visit every other weekend. I will call on a weekday after i get off from work to speak to them esp grandma. My grandma has dementia/ alzhemiers and parkinsons. At times my grandma will shout....sometimes whisper...other times she wont talk. She knows me as" Tee", baby and sweetie. My grandpa and the home health aide care for my grandmother on a daily basis. In the afternoon, she is more awake, so thats when i visit. She has a happy glow on face when she sees me. But her moods change from time to time. I feel alone at times because i have no one else. I dont want to feel I am not doing good enough. And i feel i dont want to be judged by my grandpa( step grandfather) and his family. I know i haven't been around. But i am making an effort. You see i have no one. My ma and stepdad live in NC. My Bro has a family. His arms is full as it is and he lives far Upstate, Mount Vernon.he is having his struggles. So who do i turn too? How do i contribute with out being judged and without losing out on life?