My father only passed away three weeks ago. He was 84. He had a stroke three years ago and recently died of heart failure. The doctor had told us he had 6 months to one year, but he died two days after we got the news. I was his full time caregiver till he passed. I keep replaying the last day together. I wished I had never left his side. We were meeting the OT and PT that day. He was very weak. He struggled to hold his drink and dropped it twice. I held the can for him and even gave him his coffee and fed him some pudding. I left for work and two hours later I got the call from the hospital doctor my father had passed. I was in shock. I'm angry at myself that I left that day. Everyone tells me he is not suffering anymore and in peace. But I am selfish and wanted my dad to be with us longer. I know he wasn't happy but at least he was with still with us. But now he is gone and I don't know how to go on.