Does anyone else struggle with Mother's Day? I feel horrible admitting it, but with 30+ years of her mental illness and now dementia, I can't remember having a mother - only being in the mother role with her. I look at Mother's Day cards and think how inappropriate most of them are to our situation. This mother's day, I just feel tired and sad when I think of her.
Friends are posting loving tributes to their mothers on Facebook and some of them have gone down the path of dementia or Alzheimers with their mothers the last few years of their lives. I really wonder why I can't feel the same about mine.
By the time my father died, we had gone through so much with him and so much drama and bitterness from him, that all we felt was relief. I wonder if someday all I'll feel for losing Mom will be sadness for the life she never had.