My son and his fiancee and their baby daughter live with mom and me. I am taking care of mom (89) who has Dementia and COPD. She forgets everything and there is much that I have to do for her. If I ask my son for one thing, he rants and raves that he works and has a 3 year old baby to care for. He does help occasionally, like taking over the responsibility of caring for my mother while I visited some relatives for 2 days. But I might as well have stayed home because all I heard was how much he had to do around the house to take care of both mother and child. I ran out my anti-depressant meds over the weekend and have been doing nothing but crying and wishing I could run away. But if I do that, I feel so guilty that I can not relax for worrying about what is going on at home. I can not afford a nurse or someone to come in and help me as my mother is paranoid about things getting stolen from strangers. She refuses to go to ALH or NH and my son makes it worse by threatening that he will never speak to me again if I send my mother away. Additionally, my health is deteriorating as well and I am finding it more difficult to do everyday things for her as well as keep up with housework and cooking. I wish sometimes I could find a way to relax and be able to focus on something other than caregiving and listening to my verbally abusive son complain.