My 94 year old mother with dementia has lived with me the past 2 years now since June. She's laying over there bedridden...and I'm sad, crying, feeling guilty that I could've/should've done more about letting her visit her home and be around the things she loved. She lived on the property where she was actually born and raised and loved to sit on the porch and try to figure out what the neighbors were doing, watch traffic etc. We did try to take her a few times when my hubby would do yard work and it went pretty well however the last time was somewhat of a disaster when she informed us she was going to stay and would not budge so we never took her back. Has anyone else ever had these type feelings??? I don't know, it just always seems I'm on an emotional roller coaster feeling guilt about one thing or another and today this is where my mind is.