My mom had a stroke and heart attack in February possibly caused by afib. Since then she has been in the hospital several times , in medical rehab, and an rehab facility with the hope of coming home, She has limited mobility and is incontinent sometimes. She came home for a few days with a 24/7 home care agency. She had an undiagnosed UTI, got up confused - fell and broke 4 ribs. The aide did not hear her - since then we purchased an alarm. After the hospital and more rehab, she went back home again with the same agency but they couldn't handle her. We could tell these girls were not experienced. Mom in now on the skilled nursing home side of the rehab facility she was in before. Mom has speech and swallowing issues - has to have thickened liquids and a mechanical diet - grinding up tough meats. She has C diff for the third time and is also on antibiotics for that. I was in charge of dispensing her medications and was in fear of her choking on pills that couldn't be crushed even though they were put in pudding. She needs her blood pressure and heart rate to be monitored twice a day to see if she should take her BP meds or not if numbers are too low. She also has congestive heart failure and takes Lasix for edema. Cognitiviely she is lucid most of the time but sometimes thinking back to the past. The other day another home care agency called to evaluate her - they are more reputable than the one we had before. They said they could handle her and that Visiting Nurses would come in for a while to monitor her condition/INR levels because she's on blood thinner too. They would give her PT,OT and speech therapy were the nursing home will only do speech now. Even though we want her to come home we are concerned whether its the best thing for her. They had to adjust her BP and heart meds the other day because her heart rate is too low. We would only be able to afford to bring her home for a few months and I am willing to take a leave from work so that I wouldn't be too tired to help with the meds,etc. I'd bring her to my house to make it easier on me but with the C diff hate to infect my husband, dog and house. Besides, my mom would rather be in her own home - has OCD and is particular about cleanliness. Do we leave her in the nursing home where she isn't happy or bring her home for a few months of happiness? I know it would be difficult for me and my sister, who agreed to help with the meal preparations, but I hate to leave her there forever like this.