I've had a very rocky year with my parents - dysfunctional parent/child relationship, dysfunction individuals, meddling relatives.
My 13 year old beloved dog had to be unexpectedly put down a few weeks ago.
My father started home hospice a couple of weeks ago. He doesn't have long and is weaker by the day. We've had a rocky relationship later in life, probably starting when he was in his 80s (he is 89 now) and he has been very difficult these past few years. He blamed a lot of his unhappiness on me so I took the brunt of his anger.
I'm feeling so broken these past few weeks. The loss of my dog was devastating and I am dreading the loss of my father. Though we have had our difficulties I know he did the best he could and I know I will be devastated when he dies. He's always been quite isolated from the family, preferring to spend time alone in his office reading or watching tv. He continues to spend a lot of his waking time alone - sitting outside on the deck or sitting in his office. It's painful to watch him fade, he can't hear, he can't see, he doesn't eat, is confused, is exhausted...
Does anyone have any words of advice on how to handle this time of life? I want to see him into a peaceful end of life. He is a bit less agitated these days since started CBD oil. Is there anything I should be doing/saying to make this transition easier for either of us?
Thank you for your support, it's really so appreciated.