Mom is 85 and has been losing her balance and falling a lot over the past year. A few weeks ago, she had fallen every day during a 1 week period. The last time it happened, she had to go and have 14 sutures on her scalp. While at the hospital the doctors found that she had numerous broken ribs and compression fractures in her back. I know, you're wondering why I didn't call the ambulance every time she fell. If I'd have done that, they would have been here 50 times! I had no idea that these injuries were present because she never complained specifically about these areas. It has been about 3 weeks since Mom left the house in an ambulance and she currently resides at a local Nursing Home/ Rehabilitation center trying to get better. She has mild dementia and seems to be tired a lot of the time.When Mom was here at home, I was always on edge waiting to hear the "THUD" of her hitting the floor again. It's just her and I here at home and I'm the sole caregiver with a Durable POA for healthcare and finances. I have a full-time job during the week and it got so bad caring for her that I was getting 2 hrs. of sleep a night and my job was in jeopardy. These past few weeks, since Mom has been gone, have been a blessing. Even my boss and co-workers have remarked on the positive changes in me. I love my Mother very much and feel terribly guilty just writing these things but I feel I can't do the caregiving thing anymore. This "intense" care giving for Mom here at home has been going on for about 18 months. I was beginning to feel trapped and it got so bad at one point a few months ago that I wanted to commit suicide. Now I feel like a new man but terribly guilty about even contemplating having her be a permanent resident at the NH. What do I do? Should I take my chances and bring her back home and have "hell on earth for me (but nice for her) or should I make arrangements to have her become a permanent resident of the NH? People tell me that I am caring for my Mom by having her at the NH but I feel sooo guilty. Why? What do I do?