I am disabled - fibromyalgia, arthritis, disintegrating back and heart disease (heart attack at 53). My childhood was filled with emotional and physical abuse from my mother. She died in January and I feel nothing but relief. My father simply ignored it. I'm trying to be a good daughter but I really want him to go away. My daughter(32) battled breast cancer this past year. She is doing really well but the stress has been awful for us both. Anyway, my father has always been a self centered, always right, domineering so and so. He has been diagnosed with dementia and the neurologist has tried him on the excelon patch and told him he couldn't drive unless he had a driving evaluation at a local facility. He reuses and cancelled the apt we made. He lives alone and is making financial errors with his limited income, forgetting to pay bills, paying bills twice, making poor decisions. His constant and lifelong topic of conversation is how stupid everyone is and how the world is going to h***. he doesn't go to church and has no friends. He will accept no help from me or anyone else. I really wish I could I could disown him but I feel guilty. I have been in counseling (good but can't do it forever) I am trying mightily to trust in God but it's hard. My father is an atheist, on top of everything else. It is so sad when the prospect of a parent's death makes you feel nothing but relief. Has anyone else been there?