I'm having a very difficult time coming to terms with not having a mother I've bent over backwards to please (all my life... and, now caring for her)... I am so sad (grieving in the 'physical' now with her) that we will never be... anything to me really... She usually works against me... (buddies up to my brother's who live 1,000 miles away ... while I take care of her... tells me I am the root of all problems... tells me things like "you have no friends"... and, doesn't want me to call her 'mom', especially around people (like she's embarrassed)... I have almost (really) lost my mind... When special days like Valentine's Day comes up... they are usually ruined upon repair... I am so saddened with tears in my eyes. How do I accept the lose of the mother I never had? (my dad died when I was 17)... How do you pick up the 'pieces' (when you're so depressed after giving all you've got)?