As I’ve shared before on AgingCare my mom has always been very difficult, to say the least. Reason why I, only child and only person that she can count on, am here taking care of her to the best of my abilities. Since last night she has been very upset, mad, and would not tell me why. I think it has to do with her thinking I don’t do or handle the house chores as she would do it. But I’m doing the best I can, honestly. My main focus is her wellbeing, that she is eating healthy and on time, helping her, being there if she needs something. Today she was furious (well, since last night); since early in the morning. Everything she said was nasty and everything I said was taken the wrong way. As background, my mom is refusing medical help, we are overseas, no nursing homes here unless you have the means to get private at home care. So I’m it. Today I went to mass, actually I never leave the house because everyday there is something wrong with her that makes me not have the heart to leave her alone. But today I felt I needed to, so went to mass and grabbed a coffee afterwards. Took me an hour and a half probably, I think that made her even more mad. Came back, she was sleeping or pretending to. A while later she got out of her bedroom and headed to the kitchen, I asked if she needed anything, she told me -visibly mad- that she wanted the leftovers from last night...but last night she told me she wasn’t even going to tell me to keep the leftovers because she knew I wouldn’t do it (?) and that she didn’t want them anyway...so I gave the leftovers to the dogs last night. So today once I told her I disposed of the leftovers because I thought she didn’t want them, she grabbed a plate with food from the refrigerator and threw it on the floor,plate broke, food everywhere, and I was/am paralyzed with concern...because being as alone as I am on this journey, if this is a symptom of a worsening undiagnosed mental condition or physical condition, I don’t know what I am going to do. Even if it’s just that she feels so miserable that I’m not really helping her..what am I doing then? What can I do? I have to go back to the US in June (I moved overseas to her house to care for her) because my house rental agreement (I’m renting my house out) is over and need to go receive my property, fix it up and find new tenants, all in four weeks, I hope. Still no one that can stay with her while I’m gone..she doesn’t tolerate anybody. I’m so concerned. I love my mom, with all me heart! It’s truly only God and I on this, and He is the reason why I’ve been able to do all I’m doing, and to keep going, but I’m so scared not to know what to do, and to fall short, I’m AM falling short!..not do or be what she needs at this stage in her life. My heart feels so heavy with..sadness, disappointment, concern..loneliness.