If you've read any of my posts you probably can gather that my mom is a HANDFUL.
She has an official diagnosis of mild vascular dementia caused by a stroke years ago with a tendency of behavioral issues. She resides in a nursing home with medicaid. She is incontinent of the bladder, and is a 2 person assist.
She constantly says "there's nothing wrong with my mind" "you're punishing me by keeping me here" "why won't you help me leave?" "I completed therapy, I can leave" "I can work and drive"
She calls me all the time saying these things, and it is making me miserable. I feel guilty but mainly I am just furious. There is no rationalizing with her whatsoever. I can't block her because she has my work number then she harasses me at work. I'm not able block her on my work phone. She calls the cops all the time if the nursing staff don't attend to her immediately and the cops have expressed they are fed up with it.
I do NOT feel comfortable putting her in an independent living situation again. I tried that once and obviously it didn't work. I gave up my life to move home and fix her mess. My mom has called me evil for not helping her. I just refuse to be liable for her demise.
But the thing is... she sounds so clear when she says these things, and it plants those little awful seeds of doubt. However her doctor, social worker, and nurses all say the same thing about her: she needs nursing level care. How can I go against all those people? How can I go against what I can see with my own two eyes?
I've considered resigning as POA and removing her from my life but I can't ever seem to do it. But she is the most exhausting person to be around and have in my life. She could live another 20 years which seems to be a daunting prospect for both her and I.
How can I deal with this? I loathe my weekly visits, and I loathe my daily phone calls. If I don't call her every day, she'll call me saying that I don't care about her. Mind that my mom and I have always had a rocky relationship, and I honestly don't care if it gets better. She got to have her fun carefree 20s many years ago, but here I am at 22 living a life I wouldn't wish on anyone.
She thinks if I do what she says that the world will just fall into place. My dad accepted his condition a couple months ago and since then our relationship as parent/adult child has blossomed. My mom is too wrapped up in her woes to make that association, and I blame both her mild dementia and her personality.
I'm just fed up. She needs serious help somehow, and I have exhausted all options for her. I can't seem to simply accept her mindset and just quietly nod at every infuriating sentence she says. I can't seem to get into her reality. I told her its healthier for both of us to limit contact but that just turns into a screaming match.
what to do....