My mom has a history of stroke, CHF, PAD, diabetes....a bag a mixed medical tricks. She is suffering right now, the pain is agony and she was admitted to the ER and they gave her massive amounts of antibiotics and fentanyl. I have to choose to amputate or end of life care. I am going to speak to palliative care hopefully today. I think an amputation will be horrible since she has poor quality of life. I am scared of what her ending days will be like if I choose to let her come home with hospice. Will it be a horrible death? She’s suffered so much. I am her legal guardian so all decisions fall to me. I thought I was ready to let her go and stop the suffering, but I am just scared I will choose poorly. I don’t want my children to see her suffer, my father is useless but I believe her time here should be done and she should be at peace. I have watched 30 years of suffering. It’s no way to live.