I'm really starting to regret that we let her move in with us. Everything now is about her. She does not want to go to a nursing home and tells me if I put her in there she will kill herself and take all her pain pills. I just feel like a prisoner in my own home. I still work and have a cousin that comes in to help with Mom about three hours a day. I at times don't even want to come home anymore and I've never felt like this before. I miss my husband so much but all my time is consumed with taking care of my mother. I am planning my husband's celebration of life party but it is so difficult because her care is never ending. Feeling so lost!!