Today on the bus was a mentally exhausting exercise. I take her from the house to the bus stop, constantly “oh my feet hurt! Oh I’m cold! Oh I’m tired” moan moan moan.
Then we get on the bus. 5 minutes in. “Are we there yet? Why is this taking so long? Where are we now?” Another 5 minutes later “Are we there now? Where are we now?” And this goes on until we get to our location.
When we get to our location it doesn’t stop, shopping is stressful. And then we have to take the bus back.
This is a small example but sometimes it feels like carting a toddler around and I get so mentally exhausted that I can barely answer her questions. I just sit there numb and unable to think straight. All the while she is still going on and on and getting annoyed when I don’t answer.
ALSO: in shops, sometimes I’m so exhausted that I can be a bit snappy in my answers because I have put up with it all day. Sometimes shop staff give me looks like “be nicer to this elderly lady” and I get SO angry.
How do I cope? I feel bad but I can’t help it. I sit in the toilet for a few moments to myself to think straight.