My mom, 84, has Alzheimer's, stage 5. For years she refused to live where her family can be with her and take care of her. We got her back to the Caribbean at last. She is not happy, is usually angry. In the beginning her way of expressing herself was like spitting fire.
My mom does not like me to advise her in anything when she is in this mood.
She loves to show appreciation to others, while she shows that she will not be just as sweet to me, the care-giving family member. In fact she is usually very nasty. This hurts so much, especially when in front of me, she will kiss and hug another for helping her while she shoves me away from doing the same for her.
Sometimes for days she will not look at me nor talk to me. Her anger lasts for weeks. Some without being triggered. One day in weeks she can be kind to me.
Strangely, it is when I talk with her about her illness and that her behaviour is because of it, she reacts of course very unreasonable and obstinate. This I understand. Yet shortly after she becomes meek and cooperative and very sweet to me. I cherish those changes. They last one to four days in which I have to be very tactful, for she hears/understands what has not been said. Three times now I have used this approach and have had success, all be it very short-lived. It is these rare moments that keep me going. She displays senility in these moments. Yet she does not forget what she has been angry about.
We live together, but she is still looking to live elsewhere, and not with family. She believes she can take care of herself. Yet when "given" the chance to be independent she shows fear with anger.
My mom senses that something is the matter with her mind, but she rebels against her family saying, We think she is dotish.
I am desperate at times. I feel then that I am thinking of my predicament in stead of her situation of losing her independence and grasp of things, which she is very aware of. Yet I do not intend, by God's grace to drop caring for her.
I have not read that others are experiencing anything like what my mom does to me, or the way she behaves.
Thank you, Dell