Mom died and I don't know what to do! I moved into their home to take care of dad who passed away, then mom got diagnosed with cancer, 3yrs later then she died. She died the other day in hospice care.
I'm having nightmares IF I sleep. Haven't slept over 2 hours a night! I'm throwing up, having panic attacks or I'm just feeling like I'm in a weird nightmare. Mom was my best friend! We did everything together, cooked together, shopped together, had dinner together every night and played scrabble. She declined quickly -- I mean, I really thought we had 5 years ahead of us! She went into the ER with a UTI and BAM!!! Pain and screaming. Her rectal cancer had gotten to the point where it was blocking passages. She was inoperable.
I feel like I'm dying! Or I'm going crazy! I can't leave the house cause I'm scared I'm gonna throw up in public or have a panic attack! I was fine before this (kinda) and this just shook me to the core! There are hardly any support groups in my area.
Can you give me tips on not going crazy and how to live a normal life after your favorite person in the whole world dies? I'm so incredibly sick to my stomach over this and I look like a professional boxer cause I have so much bags under my eyes - like someone beat me up! Nonstop crying. Is this normal? I heard of people grieving before, but I think I'm dying!! :-(........