I got a call from my 85 year old Mom who said she was in the Hospital and had gotten sick from macaroni and cheese along with 10 other people from her Senior Home. I reached the head Nurse at her facility and she was IN HER ROOM!!!! Later that day she called and was herself then this morning she was sobbing uncontrollably again. They are testing her and her doctor is aware. She was diagnosed with Dementia 3 years ago yet just this past few weeks she seems to be fluctuating wildly with her emotions. No bladder infection - they are checking other things. Its hard to sort the 'aware manipulative' things she says for sympathy and attention versus what is really a valid concern - however - she has definitely gotten more immediately repetitive (up to 3 times asking the same thing) in a 7 minute phone call. The Nurse said, 'this is normal' meaning for this dementia - she said people say NO this is not my mother however I believe she was trying to tell me this IS the path of this brain disease. I took care of her my whole life since my father died and now I can't and shouldn't - I can do more harm than good because she will comply with 'strangers' and just show her worst unhappy side with me - plus - she tries to 'keep her pride position' with me - she doesn't want to seem wrong or needy with me so doesn't relax when I am visiting and she doesn't want me to see her upset also. It's truly a messy, disturbing, erratic, confusing, sadder than sad disease or aging. It is probably best we don't know about all of this - even though I've been trying to read everything I can now - I'm gradually seeing that unawareness and lack of knowledge of what 'could' be was probably a blessing up until now. I am going to live and enjoy the 'good' moments which I feel will show up again and just pray for courage and strength for the road yet to come.