She was a sad person, depressed, anxiety, nervous breakdown - she really struggled with those issues. And in reading over the emails she sent me over the years they were only about taking her shopping, picking up meds, doing things for her, etc. She relied on me heavily as there was no one else. So it was not a fun relationship for me and I suspect not for her either. So that makes me sad for her and me and regretful that I did not work harder at the relationship. I didn't work at it at all. I was young and not too aware in my 20s, 30s, and 40s. My 50s I got smarter! But all in all, I just regret not really sharing myself with my mother and vice versa. We were not a close knit family, just the opposite. And now that she has passed on, I am very regretful and sad. I'd be interested in everyones thoughts as today was a sad day for me.