My mother (91) is bipolar........and very hard of hearing. The hearing problem was something she has always obsessed about. An ever-present part of our family for as long as I can remember. She has always been able to "selectively hear" things and has also spent a lifetime "tuning out" and refusing to pay attention as she went off into her manic or depressive states. I know her like a book. Please don't suggest hearing aids - they are of no help to her nerve deafness and she becomes an emotional banshee if anyone even mentions hearing aids. She lives with me and I am struggling to communicate as she can manipulate sooooooo well. She has a sweet persona to the outside world but to me - she is very difficult. Question is....................I have to yell in order to "snap her out" of her craziness. Yes she's medicated and seen regularly by psych people.....not much else they can do. BUT I get so exasperated - and the yelling.................makes me feel like a terrible person. I can "feel my blood pressure pumping hard and fast" and worry that I could have a stroke from all this. Does anyone else worry about their own health while caregiving?