Hi, my name is Jan. I have been caring for my mother since i was 11 when she became pregnant and sick. I am now 27 years old. She has had a grocery list of medical issues until ultimately going blind in 2006. I was 17 and fresh out of high school & i decided to help her and my 5 year old brother at the time. Fast forward to now.. My mother is blind, has end stage renal failure, received a quadruple bypass last year, has orthostatic hypotension & 2 benign brain tumors. Now my brother is 15 and can help out a little but i try to take most of the burden off of him. I am losing my mind. Never meant to put my life on pause this long. I now have a child of my own that is 1 & caring for my mother often takes time away from my beautiful toddler. I dont see an end. I have countless suicidal thoughts. I have no outside family support. I have become a recluse. I have no income. I have no identity. I hate to sound like im looking for pity but this felt good to vent & purge from my soul. Good day everyone!