My husband is 29 years my senior and he has been diagnosed with congestive heart failure. He is considered "borderline" by Hospice and to date I am his sole caregiver. His condition is worsening steadily, more weakness, weight loss and lethargy. In my area I will need to pay between $22-$27 per hour for in-home care. Thus far he is able to handle his personal needs (with some difficulty) but I am anticipating this will not be the case much longer. He has been deterioriating for almost 5 years and I have had about 3 weeks away during that time. Yes, I am sleeping badly, seeing my physician more often than I would like and generally worn down. Our relationship has not been a marriage for some time and I have accepted my situation. I think constantly about getting away by myself, working on remembering what it is I want out of life and moving forward. If you know how to deal with this life in limbo I'm stuck in, please, share your ideas.