It was a yr Jan 8,2015 and I have been in the house for 3 wks. She was like my mother. I'm 45 now. I moved in with her when I was 14 and even then when she wasn't sick I worried about her passing away. I was alone with her when she passed and she changed so much in the few minutes after she passed. Everyone else thought she looked good but I don't see that at all. My aunt said her spirit was gone.My cousin and my uncles wife stayed at the hospital that night where the kids didn't have to be there. 3 months later my cousin (like my sister) lost her 4 yr old son in a tragic accident. He lived a week then he was a organ donar. Everyone said mamaw wouldn't have been able to handle what happened to him and that's why God took her first. The people I'm closest to in my life are in so much pain. My dad is a caregiver for his wife and it breaks my heart. I want to help everyone but I need to get myself better but I have no clue how. Please help me!!!