I'm afraid it will bring back memories if I apply there.

Go ahead and apply for it but not if you believe it will be a panacea for your grief. You should get a handle on the grief first, because people in nursing homes die all the time, and if each death becomes your mom's death again, you'll completely fall apart.
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Nalanala Apr 30, 2023
Thank you for your help, needed another opinion I haven't stopped grieving over my mom's passing I to believe I might be looking for something I can't get back.
Go for it! In my experience staff turnover at nursing homes is very high, if you find you don't like it you don't have to stay.
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Would it be possible to Volunteer frequently at the ALF, before applying there? Volunteer several times per week, and you will be able to gauge your feelings. I rather think it would be helping to you to "assist others". However, you are the only one who can decide if the timing is right, or if you grief is still 'too raw'. Volunteering could help make that decision for you.
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I think there are probably at least 2 issues here - 1) that you are still grieving the loss of your mother and are looking for closure at the last place she resided and 2) you need a job and/or something to fill your days.

It might work for both issues. . The suggestion to volunteer there for long enough to find out if it works for you is a good one.

Others who have posted here have gone on to looking after seniors once their LO passed and it has been successful for them. If volunteering at that NH doesn't work foe you, some other similar occupation might.

As well, in terms of dealing with your grief, a grief group or grief counsellor would likely help you. I have used both, separately, in the past and found them good for me. Wishing you all the best in navigating this difficult phase in your life.
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Im sorry for your loss.

Maybe you’ve made your decision by now. I just saw your message.

You’re not alone (me too) this month will be 2 years. There’s a strong desire for me to help seniors and caregivers.

Whenever I visit the ALF she was in, I still get teary eyed. But it also warms my heart.

Maybe visiting a couple times will help you make your decision?

It’s hard to know how you will feel. There is no right or wrong answer.
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Sorry you lost your mother. Get yourself some grief therapy. Apply for the job. You will focus on helping someone else and earning money for yourself. If it turns out, like six months, it does not work out for you, quit and go a nursing home somewhere else, or go to aother type of facility.
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You need time to grieve. Volunteer only if this is your gift in life. If you volunteer, you might look for qualities of your mom in patients. As you begin to bond with patients, when they pass away, you will grieve continually. Give yourself time to grieve for your mom and then move on in your own life.
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Nalanala: I am so sorry that your mother passed away and send deepest condolences. Be sure to consider that it may be difficult to work at this particular nursing home.
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Have you gone back at all? Maybe stop in to see the staff?
Would you consider putting in some Volunteer hours?
Both of these would give you an idea as to how you would react.
What position in the facility would you be applying for? If it is patient contact or office your reactions and feelings would be different.
On the other hand as someone that has been through the journey you know what it is like and you might have a different way to solve problems.

Thinking about it though .. my opinion....
You say it is still hard for you after 2 years.
You say you are afraid it will bring back memories.
I think that you are not ready for this particular job.
I am sure that there are other places looking for someone that has the qualifications you have for this job. Apply somewhere that you will have no previous connection.
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Nalanala Jun 1, 2023
Thank you it comes and goes in waves still.
I dont have an answer but do have a story that may or may not relate depending on what your end goal is.

A former girlfriend of mine was the primary care giver for two parents who died of cancer within 3 months of each other while still in low sixties

Tough time for her of course, but amongst her siblings she was considered the most incompetent for lack of a better word and unable to find direction in life However, she really rose to the occasion with her dying parents and was so patient and kind and helpful, people around her were amazed how competent she was.

She felt maybe she had found her calling in dealing with elderly so enrolled in seminary with the intent to be a chaplain in nursing facilities, hospices, etc.

In her internships, she soon found she was not able to deal with all the difficulties of such people, it was not like caring for her own flesh and blood and could not continue with that.
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Karsten May 7, 2023
sorry, but I felt compelled to explain why I thought this MAY be applicable, even though it may not be.

In this case, when my ex girlfriend, who I will call "Lauren" because, well, that was her name said what she was going to do I, and her siblings, and others who considered ourselves amateur psychologists wondered by doing this she wasnt trying to somehow extend or relive those last few months with her parents which while difficult, were very precious to her as she was showing love to parents.

Turns out we may have in part been right as Lauren found caring for cancer patients who lost their faces etc, and with whom she had no connection was so much more difficult that doing hard things for her parents.

Again, this may have no applicability but when I read your story it made me think about that possibility.
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