I see changes, and it's increased recently. She is slow, tired, more forgetfulness about conversations and specifics in said conversations, and she's always been angry and also very expressive, but it seems like the anger is what is most important to her. Not a crazy lashing out, but very intent on telling how she stood up for herself in situations and other things. But my need for help is I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE WHO IS GOING THROUGH DESPAIR, SADNESS, ANGER, AND CONFUSION regarding their parent's decline. I have tried therapy but it is not working, I don't trust friends with something so personal, and my long-term partner is great, but he is not able to be there for me all the time.
I also feel like I am not good for her. I am incredibly trustworthy and responsible, but I irritate her and she irritates me, which I feel very horrible about, but it just happens. She thinks I thinks she's crazy, and I don't; I think she has decline and it scares me and I don't know if I am equipped to care for her if it gets bad. But MOST IMPORTANT IS SOMEONE TO SHARE THEIR STORIES WITH; A FRIEND.
Mom needs a good physical. There could be other problems besides Dementia. Low Potassium. Dehydration, onset diabetes, Thyroid can cause a number of things. She needs labs and urine test to rule these out and a UTI.
My mom is functional still. I feel so bad because I get impatient and then I feel guilty. I am older and have lived on my own for a very very long time, so retiring AND moving in with her part-time was a BIG change. And due to the pandemic here where I live I am here full-time; good and bad. It's just super hard. Thank you for your understanding.