Moved in with her because she was leaving doors open not paying bills etc. I am finding that I now argue with her when she will not compromise and I feel very guilty and ashamed and worry she may tell someone that I am mean to her, which I am not, but I do get impatient when she complains she is easy to care for other than that. After a confrontation, I then am ok for awhile because I just talk myself out of the anger and try to be more kind. I feel like I am on a rollercoaster. I do not wish for her to go to a senior home living situation. My brother and sister are not available to stay with her. We have two women who come in during the week to help but this is a financial burden that we have to resolve. I want to take care of her until the end but I am afraid I can't do it. When her mother who was 99 wanted to live with her, my mom said no because she did not want to be tied down. I now find that I resent my mom for that. I have my own home which stands empty because I cannot live there. I have my own worries, drug addicted son, mentally ill son (schizophrenia), I had a mild stroke Nov 16 had to retire, financial issues. I just don't know how to resolve my negativity. She was a good mother to me. saved my life from my own drug addiction. My main question is how to I maintain my compassion and patience? She does not deserve my bad mood.