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Mom asked me to move in to help her four years ago. I am the only single kid, and I moved from another state so I have no social contacts here. Mom has mild/moderate symptoms of cognitive decline, worsening; painful arthritis, very poor mobility, worsening; severe hearing loss with a refusal to investigate hearing aids; incontinence, and a very controlling, manipulative, spoiled character that has been well-covered until recently. Her filters are failing, and it is not pretty, compared to her once lovely self. Facade or no facade, my mother has been a well-liked, lovely person most of her life, so I have been shocked by some of her self-serving behaviors and essentially feel I am grieving the loss of my mother as well as feeling my loss of freedom.


She is 89 and I am 68. I am a kind and resourceful person, a dutiful daughter, and worked as a health care professional for many years (in physical medicine and rehab), so I know quite a bit of useful info to help, but, she is often stubborn or just plain petulant, like a spoiled, irrational child. It breaks my heart to see her in pain, and then when she won’t listen to good sense, it is beyond frustrating. Given my rehab background, I know it’s best that she do as much for herself as she can, for many good reasons. We established that threshold when I moved in. But after year one, it is clear that she’d rather be served. Not only that, she’d rather that I read her mind and then serve her. All with my old sweet smile, of course. I seem to have misplaced that old sweet smile, lately.


Along with my optimism, sense of humor, and conviction that we can weather anything. We’re not weathering. Or, most likely, mom IS weathering, but I am not.


I am burned out. After four years of 24/7, mostly no time off and little help from 2 siblings who are “busy” and live 5 hrs. away, and in Colorado, I just have to find some solutions.


I have much better circumstances than so many, and for that I’m grateful. But here I am today with a terrible feeling of wanting to either scream or just die. I’m not suicidal, but I am depressed, don’t feel good, and I feel I can’t talk to mom about it. Been there—she doesn’t believe in depression, for one thing (I have a long history of depression and anxiety). She believes it is weakness or self pity. I have the habit of just bucking up, stuffing it, and doing it anyway, with a smile. Trouble is, today I can’t summon a smile. I know when I can’t fake it, I’m in trouble.


I have made attempts to talk with my sister, but she doesn’t want to go there with me re mom’s behaviors. Sis has made it clear she wants me to stay for the duration. And she’s a doctor. Busy, busy. Brother has his own problems.


What I’d really like is to move out and caregive on my terms with the help of other caregivers. Mom has long term care insurance as well as funds. I love my mother very much. She can’t help that her capacities are failing, but she CAN help behaving like a spoiled, entitled adolescent (she has acted like that for years after remarrying and being too self-indulgent).


I can’t take the passive aggressive, manipulative, controlling behaviors on a full-time basis anymore. I’m old! I have nothing to look forward to. Mom has never once asked me about my future after she dies. This is mom’s home, not mine. I’ll have to leave after I manage to empty the house of an obscene amount of belongings which she refuses to go through now. It will take some doing. Another 6 months of my life? I don’t have many left!
A question. Would YOU, a fairly well-adjusted mother treat your daughter this way? No inquiries about me nor any indication she even thinks about my welfare. No encouragement for me to get out and about. Yes, I live in the F.O.G., but am trying to see out to clearer weather! I have ranted some. But please offer comments and suggestions. I have learned so much from you all on this forum which I have read daily for 2 yrs. Thank you so very much.

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Hi Quarkles, I am so sorry what you’ve been going through for many years. Your situation is very overwhelming and unfortunately no suggestion I can give to you. It is too pity to see the careless people makes the life of angel people like you miserable, I wish all the problems will be solved in their best possibilities soon. Just continue taking a breath at a time. Nothing is constant, you’ll feel better eventually. All the best!
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Quarkles Jun 2021
Thank you so much for your good wishes, Melisbde. Yes, that’s what it is—overwhelming. And you did make a good suggestion—to breathe! When I am overwhelmed, I catch myself holding my breath and that’s no good! Yes, my mother is careless. Love and devotion should not be taken for granted by anyone, ever, especially in these times. I appreciate your kindness.
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Your mother has long term care insurance!! She needs to use it. Which lets you off the hook to get out of this situation asap! Hire a company to come in, clean out the hoard, set it up, sell it and then do a haul out of the leftovers and off to Goodwill they go. You don't have to do it.................hire an Estate Sale company to do it. Go to Estatesales.net and find one in your area with a good rating. They will do ALL the work; you will do nothing but get out of the house while the sale is going on (normally for 2-3 days, depending on how much 'stuff' there is to get rid of). I would NOT do this if I were you; it's too too much!!! Pluck out what you want before the team comes in, and that's it. Easy peasy.

So no, I would not let my mother treat me this way. In fact, I left my 94 y/o mother's presence today in Memory Care after she chose to treat me with a huge level of contempt after I've been dealing with her non stop for the past TEN years as an only child! Your mother 'not believing' in depression and anxiety is another form of contempt for you, in my opinion, and a way to minimize and trivialize a very real condition you suffer from! Yet I'm quite sure ALL of HER problems are 'valid', even a wart on her finger (just like my mother's wart which has been an ongoing issue now for 4 years). My DHs brother just died at 70 and my mother had nothing to say about it at ALL when he mentioned it to her today! Not one word. No "I'm sorry", nada. It's all about her 24/7 and her complaints and how horrible the food at her MC is (she weighs 200 lbs, btw). So all she cares about is herself. She pays others $7000 a month to take care of her, too, b/c nobody else will. That's just how it goes. She told my step daughter on the phone today that she gets visitors 'once a year if she's lucky' when in reality, we visit her WEEKLY! So there you have it, my comments. I feel your pain.

Get out. Hire the company to clean out the mess, and then get her placed, and yourself a new life.

Wishing you good luck and Godspeed my friend. You deserve everything good in life!
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Quarkles Jun 2021
Very kind of you Lealonnie, to send your thoughts. Ten years of your mother’s me-me-me sounds completely exhausting.
How did you come to stand up to her? I’m glad you are able to turn and walk out when she’s mean.Are you saying she never learns from it? Probably can’t?

Thanks for estate sale tips, I wrote a note and put it in my “Great Escape” folder :) I have a ways to go here before that, tho. My mom is very sharp in many ways. I don’t think it’s time for a facility yet, but you just never know what tomorrow will bring. One dilemma here is that we live in a smaller town so we don’t have lots of resources. Right now, there are NO available apartments and I’ve been watching for a while. I have a feeling I might be looking for quite a while. I appreciate your note, I feel better and not so alone.
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You already know what needs to be done to save your sanity and to be able to start living and enjoying your life again. It's either moving out and getting a place in the city where mom is, or better yet, moving back to the state you came from, where you can pick up where you left off with your friends there.
You must do one or the other, as you have more than paid your dues, and now it's time for mom to get a rude awakening, and come to the realization that her loving daughter who she has used and abused all these years, will no longer be at her beck and call. It's time to put that long term care insurance to good use, along with her other funds. She's now going to either have to hire live in help for herself, or find a nice facility that she will live out her days.
And don't you dare let her or your siblings make you feel guilty about any of it. You have given up enough of your life and it has taken it's toll in a negative way, so time for you to make the changes that probably should have been done long ago. You are worth taking care of, not just mom. You've put yourself last for long enough. Don't waste another day in making the necessary changes, as none of us are getting any younger. Get out there and start finding your joy again. God bless you.
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Quarkles Jun 2021
Boy, it sure felt good to hear you say kind, loving words, funky ! Why is it so hard to know the truth, yet not know it at the same time? One minute I’ll think “ok, I’m gonna tell her “ and then I think “but what if I have it all wrong” and back down.
Seriously, I need to hear that I’m not being selfish or a big baby or something. It’s all gotten so convoluted between us, ever since I started drawing some boundary lines (which she ignored), but at least I began. That was 20 yrs. ago when I only visited every 3 months or so. Now that we’re together every day, it’s harder. She sees changes, but it’s because I’m in the wrong, not her—no, never her. The guilt and shame are so hard to dump. They are default settings, it seems! I’ll keep plugging along. Thanks so much for caring.
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It's time for you to move out. Taking care of mom is not working out.
Find a live-in caregiver for her or move her into an AL facility.
In the meantime, do not tolerate her abusive behavior. Of course you feel terrible to see her in pain and suffering, but if she can do for herself in any way she must be forced to do for herself.
You have a back round in rehab care, so you know what I'm talking about.
Waiting on her hand and foot will only make her behavior worse.
She has LTC insurance? What are you waiting for then?
I've said it many times on this forum that for caregiving to be successful it must be done on the caregiver's terms. Not the care recipient.
Look for a new apartment for yourself. Then you tell your mother what your new role will be in her care. Not the role she demands of you.
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Quarkles Jun 2021
I truly value your comments, Burnt, especially the one stating that successful caregiving must be done on the caregiver’s terms, not the recipient’s terms. You hit a nerve—one of many nerves that are so difficult to settle in a vacuum. It’s SO good to have “talked” and to have been “heard”! These helpful comments are working to clear my mind already. Part of my anguish has been the inability to see my way out of this—- no goals, no end in sight. Mom’s mother lived to be 94 and it’s very possible my own mom could make it that long. She is a fighter! There is no way on earth I could sustain 5 more years of this, as I watch MY last best years ebb away forever. I have been blessed with very good health in my life, but I don’t feel nearly as spunky as I felt the day I moved in. I completely buy it when it is said that caregivers often die first!

Yes, as I wrote, mom and I agreed she must do as much for herself as she can. I don’t wait on her hand and foot, but she wants me to. More than anything, it’s those kinds of tension between us that are wearing me out. I don’t want everything to be a contest. She needs to be “right” but often ISN’T. She does not respect boundaries or my need to have quiet time. She’s an extrovert and I’m an introvert. I enjoy a “life of the mind” and privacy. She wants me to entertain her constantly.
Everything is a contest and that is not ok with me. I feel used up. And I don’t think she has a clue about that. Maybe she does, but if so, it would be so much worse to know that she intentionally disregarded my welfare. Right now, I’m giving her the benefit of the doubt. As I wrote, she used to be a good mom and a funny, lovely person. I would like to remember her that way. I hope it’s not too late to recover some warm and fuzzy feelings about my mom.
Thanks, Burnt.
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I’m glad you reached out and hope you’ll find the courage to change your life. Mom’s not changing, other than to get worse. There’re excellent possibilities for you to make a happy and positive life. Start with meeting with your siblings to let them know you aren’t going to live with mom or be her whipping post any longer. Give them a date that it ends. Self care is vital and it’s time for you to do so. I’d love to see you come back and let us know about your changes and new life. Wishing you the best
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Quarkles Jun 2021
Courage is what I need, now, but seems elusive when you feel so low. I know I have some in there, somewhere! I pray throughout the day for strength and courage, and wisdom.
I am certainly finding some of that from you and others in this post. I must prioritize self care, because I have not. One very, very important comment you offered was to TELL my sibs what my plans are (when I have worked them out). Up to now, I have been a collaborator, as in “let’s all discuss and make the best decisions for mom”. Guess who always got the worst end of THAT kind of thinking? I just never thought my siblings would actually be so uncaring about me and my needs. Not a peep. I was going to say that I wouldn’t do that to them, but come to think of it, I was always the only one to look out for everyone else! Duh. They’re good folks, but rather self-absorbed. Time for a meeting of the minds!
Thank you so much for your helpful comments.
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A tiny piece of perspective to consider - one of my grandmothers moved into a nursing home when she was exactly your age. She could no longer take care of her disabled husband alone, and was wearing out herself. And here you are working what is effectively a more than full time job that could go on years more. Ignoring everything else you said, just by considering age and work load you need to lighten your load. You’ve carried the burden and duty admirably, it seems, but there is a point where time and age override willingness. To recognize the reality of very real limitations is not to have failed. My grandmother did not fail. She recognized she couldn’t do it anymore. If your mother can’t or won’t care about you, please care about yourself and do what is needed for you.
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Quarkles Jun 2021
“A tiny piece of perspective…” can fill a gaping hole in OUR particular life puzzle, Goddatter. Thank you for sharing your grandparents story. It is more than illuminating in a way that cuts through a lot of my chatter. “…there is a point where time and age override willingness”. I always have had trouble deciding how much is enough where mom is concerned. It’s probably easy for others to see that in my situation. There is no doubt I was “trained” by mom to be her little minion in some ways, and it has been a persistent, confusing influence that I would dearly love to end.

It DOES feel like failure to quit in-home caregiving. Although I won’t be quitting. This caregiving will simply take a new form, most likely.
Thanks so much for caring.
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Call the insurance company and get some help over there. Your Life counts too.
Sister and Brother can help too, financially or taking phone calls from caregivers or just sending groceries to the house. This is more than having a full time job at your age. I pray you will get respite.
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Quarkles Jun 2021
Thanks, Bubba. I took out the LTC file, dusted it off, and found the section on “Respite Care”. Turns out the insurance will cover 21 days per year. That’s a start!
You know, every now and then, I have said to mom “I’m getting old”. She always objected and dismissed it. I think it’s because she would then have to admit that SHE IS OLD! She has a habit of avoiding all things unpleasant about herself.

I am taking the many helpful comments in this post quite seriously. I know I haven’t been able to see clearly lately. I intend to ask my bro and sis to help in one way or another when I get the chance. (Only see Colorado bro once or twice a year, and sis (5 hrs. away), 2-3 times/yr.). I think I’ll start by asking sis to come visit more often so I can get away for 2 or 3 days.
And, I am just going to have to let the lawn weeding go. I dread it and I just can’t do it all Maybe I can hire a kid to do it!
I appreciate your comments.
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Guess I'll be blunt here. YOU are right - your mom is WRONG about depression and many other things. Do not doubt yourself. When uncertain take good advice but why listen to bad advice? Basically your mom sounds like a narcissist and they are incorrigible. Do not ever expect decent rational behavior from these people. She has money, long term care insurance so let her use them! Don't waste time and effort trying to convince her of your position just do what you need to do. You DO NOT need her permission to have a life and as for the sibs? You don't need theirs either. (And someone who does not do the work, gets NO vote. What they "prefer" is irrelevant). I would suggest making every effort to just ignore any input from mom or sibs. You have the right and the power to care for yourself. Use it. You don't need their bad advice or their selfish dumping on you. Please keep in mind that the "approval" of some people is worthless at best and an insult at worst.
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Quarkles Jun 2021
I can do blunt! Rovana, you have a knack for getting right to the heart of the matter, sifting through the many, many words I wrote, with some being kind of rambling. I do know she is wrong about depression and anxiety. It’s a good thing that I, myself, have a “knack” for research because it was left to me to figure out what was “wrong” with me, my parents never even addressed it except to make me feel like a bad, shamed little girl. It took a lot of time, but I felt that if I didn’t figure it out I would be doomed to troubled relationships, which is, of course, correct. Numerous attempts at counseling didn’t help much, probably as much my confusion as anything. Ya gotta love those old resentments! They do impact the present if not sufficiently managed. I think I’ve earned an A for trying so hard to “understand” my parents’ neglect and abuse so that I could heal AND still manage to love them. Dad passed ten yrs. ago, but I continue to work on issues. I have forgiven him.

I first became interested in narcissism when I started my daily reading here on this site. Recognized a lot of both mom and dad in the posts, so, went on to YouTube, books, etc. I have learned enough to satisfy my need for WHY? I resist labeling mom, but have found uncanny help in the very readable book by Lindsay Gibson, Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents. Incredible help…as if she wrote it for me! And, I like that she doesn’t use the label of narcissist, rather, she uses behavioral terms. So, yes, she is very self-centered, lacks empathy, and on and on…Thank goodness for this book and the section about how to handle the parent. Good tips.

As for the sibs and mom’s “approval” and/or collaboration, well, you are right. I can see I hoped for that, but that will never happen. No matter what I do in this situation, if mom is still living, I will have done it wrong somehow. I’m so thankful I get WHY that is, now. It’s not all on me! I can let some things go…AND, I can still love my mom very much. But, I don’t want to live with her for much longer.
You, Rovana, have written good advice and I am grateful to you. Thanks for listening, really “listening”.
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I think you already know the answer, don't you? You've more experience in the field of rehab (and therefore older people's care) than most caregivers have when they embark on the journey. On top of that, you now have four years' empirical research into the premise that caring for family members is nothing like caring for patients or clients. Use that, and your mother's long-term care insurance, and counsel yourself and your mother in the same way that you would have counselled your clients and their families.

Only, c'mon! You know your mother isn't and can't be expected to be "well-adjusted" at this stage. Her perspective is heavily skewed by her pain, disabilities and need for comfort, and there you are providing the gold standard of care with no effort required from her. That doesn't mean that you can't ensure just as good a standard of care without being her 24/7 slave, but it does mean she is not going to take any of the initiative on this.

I think you have been waiting for permission to make changes from your mother, your sister, your brother; but none of these people has any incentive to change a status quo which causes them no inconvenience or difficulty or expense whatsover. So will you take permission from us? - because you have it, with every blessing! Hugs to you.
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Sendhelp Jun 2021
Yes, Quarkles!
You have our permission and encouragement to use your training and skills to get Mom more care, and manage it according to her needs, and a respite for you. Oh, and hire a housekeeper too.
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Your words are filled with strong emotions, mainly exhaustion, frustration and depression, also a sense of hopelessness.

Yes, at 68 your life is passing you by. Don’t settle for that.

Should a mother treat her daughter this way? That’s a good question. Here is a better question, ‘When are you going to end this fiasco?’ USE THE LTC INSURANCE! What good is paying for insurance if it isn’t being utilized? Her payments aren’t a donation. People purchase LTC insurance because they may need it someday. That ‘someday’ came a long time ago!

Don’t ask but tell mom that all of her payments are going to be put to good use.

Do not equate caregiving with your love for her.

You are running on fumes. How far do you think you can make it on fumes?

I cared for my mom as a caregiver for 20 years, 15 years in my home. It nearly killed me and trust me, I was as miserable as you are. She recently died in a hospice house with end stage Parkinson’s disease. She received excellent care. I certainly miss her but I am glad that she is no longer suffering and is reunited with my father and brother in the afterlife.

My mom didn’t have LTC insurance. I certainly wish that she had because my life could have been very different. I didn’t have help from my siblings until a major blow up with my brother. He stepped in for 14 months before mom entered her hospice house. Then he saw first hand what I went through. Your siblings are clueless! Stop expecting them to understand. Take control of this situation for yourself and your mom. Mom needs more care than it is possible for you to give her.

Wishing you peace as you navigate your way through this difficult time in your life.

I want to read a different posting from you soon, something like this, ‘Hi, everyone! Today I made plans for my mom to be placed in a wonderful facility! I am moving forward in my life. I am meeting my friends, going out to dinner, taking a trip, etc,”

Keep us posted, we care!
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Quarkles Jun 2021
Thanks for your story and comments. I’m sorry to hear of the loss of your mother. You gave her so much. I hope you are finding some peace in her rest.
I honestly haven’t considered placement for my mom because she isn’t ready for that yet. In other words, she doesn’t want to leave her home and the comfort of her beautiful things, yet, and I believed I’ll know when it’s time for her to go. I used to be afraid it might be down the road a few years, but now I’m afraid not. I don’t know how to do this. I’m stumbling along trying to do it “right” or “well”, but I can’t do it alone any longer. I love my mother very, very much. I want her to feel safe, comfortable, and secure. And she does. She’s extremely fortunate in many ways.
Yup. Sibs are clueless. My sis has POA (mom set that up years ago ). It may be a little inconvenient but hopefully not a problem. I believe you’re absolutely right that I must stop expecting sibs to understand. I will take control and step by step will get a good solid plan. That will really help with the anxiety. I feel like the old boat is getting some wind in her sails! Jibe ho!
Thank you so much for your comments and for caring.
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I personally would move out and get my own space. Have you looked into what her longterm care coverage provides? Maybe a home attendant that could relieve you of some of the time you are there if you chose to stay and help? Also, its your life too and it sounds like your siblings aren't doing anything to help. Maybe think about why you are living with her and what you really want. Too much stress can make anyone sick. Dealing with my family has made me sick and now it's just me to deal with it. What do you want to do?

Also, maybe now that things are feeling safer, if you chose to stay in that area, maybe you can do some fun things you love to try to meet new friends (since you mentioned you don't know anyone in the area). One way is to sign up for Meetups... they have many different types of activities.
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Quarkles Jun 2021
Thanks for your comments, Mmm777. Yes, I’m feeling better with the help of my new friends here at AC. It’s awful feeling so isolated and alone in decision-making for someone else’s welfare. The stress was too too much, but it’s better now. I’m one of those people who needs a plan. Then I feel like I can handle most anything because I have a mission!

I have herLTC insurance papers all spread out and ready to analyze. Her coverage is pretty good, but I want to call and check on some details. A home health aide is covered up to $100 per day, so, roughly 4 hrs. Better than some.

You asked why I am living with mom.
I am here because she called me and said she didn’t think she could live alone anymore, she needed help and would I come.
I am here because she’s my mother and I love her. I’m here because I COULD come (single, no kids), 2 other sibs could NOT come (would not).
I will admit I sure didn’t want to, and I regret not exploring other options. I pretty much made an emotional decision.
Mom needed me.

What I really want? A little house on the edge of the woods with lots of birds and a big garden and a dog or two! Ha, you asked! I really will have that one of these days!

Right now, I think I want to work on a realistic plan to transition mom to the best place I can find so I can recover a little freedom and peace, and visit her as a calm, loving daughter, not as her caregiver servant. Those are my thoughts tonite, it could change. For certain, it will take some time.
i appreciate your suggestions.
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https://www.agingcare.com/questions/does-anyone-else-feel-like-running-away-from-it-all-467785.htm

You had 56 responses to your first question. First, everything you have described is a woman suffering from Dementia. You can no longer reason with her and yes they become self-centered.

You need to read Moms LT insurance contract and find out what it covers. If it covers an AL, the person who is POA needs to place Mom or find her caregivers. Thats what the insurance was bought for. You need to tell your sister that you can no longer deal with Mom and you are moving. She may be a doctor but believe me there are doctors that no nothing about ALZ and Dementia.

Sister is not the one dealing with this 24/7 with no life, you are.
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Quarkles Jun 2021
Hi JoAnn, Actually, I did not have 56 replies, that was another post you’re thinking of. I replied to it, too.

Yes, I believe you that many doctors are not trained to deal with ALZ, dementia and aging. My sis is one of them. (When I mentioned her I meant that being a doc makes her life super busy, although now that I think of it, the life of a ballerina can be super busy, too, so what did that have to do with anything?) :)
Yes, I am looking over the LTC ins. info. It does cover AL, but I have more to learn, like are there limits to coverage. I will call someone at the ins. Co. to help me interpret the contract and the claims process. I read this policy last year and recall that I need to get mom’s doc to order it, get an a nurse evaluator over here? Lots to learn.
once I get the bigger plan figured out, I’ll let sis and bro know
what I’m thinking. One big concern I have is this: I’ve been watching the rental market for quite a while and nothing is available. The housing market is bad here,too. Not enough places for people to live! So that will be a big factor in planning.
Thanks for your comments, JoAnn.
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I just read your response to Bubba. I do believe that you are interested in making changes.

Here is a suggestion for you. Make a copy of your mom’s LTC insurance stipulations regarding respite care. Put the copy on your refrigerator! Enlarge the print if possible!!!

Look at it daily until you take action. Stop putting this off. You know that you deserve a break from caregiving to start working on your exit plan and finding an appropriate facility for your mom to reside in.

Now, while on break, start researching facilities in your area. You can schedule tours either virtually or in person, collect data and talk to your siblings about your findings. They should be more appreciative of you. Sadly, they are taking you for granted. Do not allow them to treat you this way. If they want respect from you, show them that they need to give you respect. Respect is earned.

Tell your siblings, ‘You have not walked in my shoes. You have no clue what this is like. Unless you wish to step into my shoes, don’t speak to me and listen to what I have to say! I am done listening to you and mom. I will not be mom’s caregiver any longer. I have done all of the leg work finding mom an appropriate place. I can make the final selection or you can participate. Which one will it be? My caregiving duty will end on such and such a date, so I need an answer as soon as possible. Thank you!’

Does this sound like a feasible plan to you?
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Quarkles Jun 2021
Aren’t you the clever one? I do like the respite on the refrigerator idea. It won’t last long hanging there! Also, I was thinking of where to find respite care providers. We live in the far north and have fewer resources than many. Maybe church groups? I googled and nothing showed up for this area. I can start with the agency on aging and see if they have suggestions.
Also maybe they have a handy list of facilities.. Actually, we don’t have all that many so it won’t be a huge research project or anything. But, making that first call will NOT be easy. It’s hard to know what I need to ask. I heard that residents must be fairly mobile to qualify for AL, and mom is barely able to make it to the bathroom with her walker. I recently asked her doc for some home therapy, so that is helping her strengthen her legs.
Yes, the sibs definitely are taking me for granted. I do believe they appreciate what I’m doing for mom, they just don’t offer much in the way of help. I thought sis would offer to relieve me now and then. I know she’s very busy, but…

Well, you and Bubba got me jumping onto respite care, and you and a number of others got me making a list of facilities. That’s a good start. Lots to learn. Thanks so much for the “nudge” and the suggestions.
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Just read your response to mine. Thanks for your condolences for my mom. I appreciate it.

I told you about my mom so you would know that I have walked in your shoes. It’s a tough job being a 24/7 caregiver!

I am glad that you feel that your mom is doing reasonably well. I don’t understand what the hesitation in placement for her is. According to your profile, she is 89! She had ALZ. Please don’t wait until things become worse. It is better to place her before she is at her worst so she can adjust to her new surroundings easier.
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Quarkles Jun 2021
I wanted to clarify. You wrote “she had ALZ” and you were wondering why I haven’t placed her.
My mom does not have Alzheimer’s! I believe I described her as having mild to moderate symptoms of cognitive decline.
I might have used the word dementia.
She has no diagnosis of dementia. She really is pretty sharp, is able to navigate her iPad and manage her bills and paperwork. She is definitely declining, but she’s still sharp. That’s why I feel I can’t place her yet. It’s her personality features that have me all tensed up! They’re getting more pronounced as her filters fail.
i’d better check my profile to see if I inadvertently wrote a fib!
Thanks for your concern—I do appreciate that.
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Quarkles——welcome to the forum. You and your mother are just one year older than my mom and me. Ive read all the posts and just have one thing to say——-
if you dont have the POA how are you handling her dr appts and speaking with the AL places, etc. as many years as you have been the caregiver you should have been assigned by your mom as POA. Is the sister that has it now going to help you when needed to get mom placed. And never sign as a responsible party, if your mom is cognizant she should sign all the necessary paperwork. Our situations are alot alike in some ways. Blessings to you dear one….Liz
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Quarkles Jun 2021
Thanks for your warm welcome! Almost the same ages! I admit when reading stories (daily) I feel kind of old to be complaining about my mama! :) I swear this site has saved me on numerous occasions. It’s very comforting to read kind, helpful, even loving posts from good-hearted experienced folks to persons in need. Just because. Often, stranger to stranger, though we become both friends and family in many instances. What an utterly beautiful thing! 😂 I am so thankful for this site!
To address your points: I have a release of information document on file with the doctors’ offices, and I attend all visits. Same with the LTC ins. Co. ( a couple of years ago, I requested a release of info form, they sent it, mom signed it, granting the release of information from them to me, and now I can talk with them about her policy).
i haven’t spoken with any facilities yet, but I will inquire about a release of info. If it becomes necessary, mom could name me as a second medical POA, I believe. Because mom is competent, POA isn’t an issue at present, but even so, my sis is a good communicator and tho she’s 5 hours away, I don’t anticipate problems. (should I?).
We can’t see the future, but mom very likely will need placement because of mobility issues before cognitive.

Yes, sis would help however she could at that time. Thanks for the reminder about not signing! I appreciate your help.
hugs to you and your mom!
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Regarding the LTC insurance, you should definitely work on getting that process underway as soon as possible. Most policies have a waiting period between the time the person is certified as being eligible for LTC and when the insurance will actually start paying. For example, our policy has a 90 day period; we have friends who had to wait for a whole year. In the interim, there would be private pay (at home or facility), or Medicare acute rehab (if eligible), or unpaid family care. To start the process, you'll need documentation from the Dr. and any other medical providers that can demonstrate your mother's need. Sometimes the LTC insurance company will also send an independent evaluator, usually a nurse. Most policies will cover both in-home services and facility placement. Policies also have a lifetime cap amount. It's hard to tell from your description whether your mother would be eligble, but generally the person needs to require help in at least 2-3 "acivities of daily lving," e.g., toileting, bathing, dressing, mobility; dementia problems also count, e.g., wandering.
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Quarkles Jun 2021
I’m so glad you wrote, Newbie! That’s a scary story about your friends having to wait a whole year. I did skim over the policy, and indeed, the waiting period is 90 days (Genworth).
It does cover in home services and we may begin there.

I think it would help mom’s transition, to help her adapt to the idea of it all by starting with a few hours of in-home care. We can see how that goes.
You wrote a great overview. Thanks so much.
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