I don’t know how much longer I can do this!

I’m not in your position, but do echo the advice from Ahmijoy. Please look after yourself however you can make that happen. You’ve done an admirable job with your husband, time to do one for yourself. If you can’t do it anymore, it’s okay

You’ve been on a long, difficult journey with your husband for a long time. He has many health and cognitive issues and it’s discouraging to realize he won’t experience any improvement in his health. I know from experience how difficult it is to keep all the plates spinning on the poles. My husband spent three months in a rehab for therapy for his mobility and he made great progress. But since he’s been home, I can already see him backsliding. Peeing the bed again instead of asking me to get the urinal. Getting out of bed, but not pushing himself to walk that one extra step. I work and have after-work obligations and I am just too tired and sore when I get home to care about pushing him to do things.

You know Cardell, if you don’t look out for yourself, no one else will. It may be time for you to be a little selfish. A lot of facilities will give you a week of respite free of they think you’ll place your loved one there. Or, since your husband is a Veteran, maybe it’s time to investigate the VA for placement. Only you can decide what’s truly important to you and how much more you are willing to sacrifice for him.