I posted yesterday that my grandmother was "actively dying." Today I woke up to a text from my uncle that she had passed on early this morning. I was going to leave this morning on a 2-hr ride to go see her and comfort her. But I couldn't get there in time. I can't breathe I can't stop crying. She was my best friend. I don't know what to do. It hurts so much. I know she is in a better place. But I just am so frustrated and angry and disappointed and distraught with myself for not trying hard enough to find transportation last night. She's gone now. I can't see her anymore, or hear her voice, or hear her tell me she loves me. I feel so hopeless and I can't stop crying. How does anyone deal with this feeling?