SAD. It's been a year and I feel like he just died yesterday. I wish I had of let him know how much I loved him, when we were on the way to the hospital it was our last car ride together and I was pretty much just silent, we just barely talked, I wish I was more compassionate, and I feel guilty for not talking my Dad out of having that surgery (Whipple procedure). The surgery was excruciating, Doctors told us how BAD it would be. I know my dad would have still died from cancer, and I know it would of been uncomfortable for him but ...STILL I JUST WISH I COULD GO BACK IN TIME AND STOP the DECISION. The surgery just so painful I miss my Dad and I feel so GUILTY!