It's not that I don't have help - I do. It's just that every time I have someone else take over for an hour or two, there seem to be 6-8 hours worth of activities that I need to squeeze into that hour or two. Like sleeping, food shopping, errands, walking the dog, social activities, exercise and other recreation.
My brother and his wife flew into town today to spend a little time with my mother while they still can. They would like to take the local siblings out to dinner tonight. No, I can't leave Mom, and I'm too exhausted at this point to go out anywhere, even with my brother who's in town for one day. My dog is getting very short walks and I'm picking up only the bare essentials at the closest supermarket and rushing home to relieve whoever is sitting with Mom while I go out.
I told my sister on the phone today that if this goes on much longer, I will need more help, especially at night because I'm getting up with Mom so often in the night that my sleep is totally fractured. She offered to stay over three nights from now and take care of Mom so I can sleep through the night. And hopefully watch the late news with the sound on, which I haven't been able to do in many days since I can't have the tv drowning out Mom's call.
I'm sure many of you have been through this and have lots of thoughts or advice so please don't hesitate to share. I'm all ears!