My husband had a stroke in 2003. In 2013, he suffered an infection in a heart valve, a staph infection and then C-diff. Although throughout our 40+ years of marriage he has had many health issues, he's never done much about them. He would on,y cooperate through a week or so of physical therapies. Since 2013, he has been retired and although he can make short forays with his walker, is for all intents totally immobile. He naps or sleeps about 18 hours a day. The television is constantly on and he binge-watches reruns for 12 hours a day. I am responsible for his caregiving, everything except feeding him. I am also responsible for our finances and with no prior experience since he always handled the money, I'm making a disaster of it. A few rooms in our home would qualify for "Hoading:Buried Alive" and I just have absolutely no ambition to clean or organize. Money is absolutely an issue and I can't afford behavioral therapy counselling for myself. My kids help when they can, but they are busy with own lives. I should mention that my mom is in a NH and as an only child, I'm also responsible for her affairs. This is not the Twilight Years I envisioned for myself and my husband. Hubby was a business-owners and we never wanted for much. I often wonder if he feels I "owe" him his care taking because he "took care" of me for so many years. But I always felt I was an obligation to him more than a life partner. If we didn't have pets and I was assured of being financially able, I would leave. But that's not an option. My own health is deteriorating as well. I know I will need another hip replacement soon and suffer from arthritis as well. I cannot leave him to have this surgery and cannot take care of him while I recover. I have also developed an issue with alcohol. I cannot handle this much longer and don't know what to do or how to take care of "me" that doesn't involve therapy and counselling that we can't afford.