My mother is in the hospital going on over a month, her health is declining everyday. The doctors told me she is bleeding everyday and we need to put her on blood thinners so she doesn't have another stroke, but if we put her on blood thinners she could possible bleed to death, that it was up to me as to what i want to do. Every week she basically needs two units of blood transfusions. They asked me if she goes into cardiac arrest, do i want them to resuscitate, after they explained me what could happen, i decided not too. i cant help to feel like the worst person out there, i know its just a "what if", but I've seen her with a breathing tube after gallbladder surgery and it killed me to see my mom like that, i am not sure if i made the right choice. I sometimes feel as if i failed my mom as a daughter that i would want to kill her off, i am so confused, and i feel guilty everyday.