Hello all!
I have been a caregiver to my mother for 8 years now, since I was 27. I am about to be 35. I am still living in my childhood home, haven't had a place of my own ever. My mom is now in mid to late-stage Alzheimer's. And it has become increasing difficult for me to find any happiness being a caregiver to her. I work a 9-5 /40 hour a week job. My mom doesn't clean, doesn't cook. She just watches TV all day. When I ask her for help with housework she responds "What's wrong with your hands" or will argue with me that something isn't dirty or doesn't need to be cleaned. So, asking her for help has become so exhausting that I have stopped asking her and just do it myself. But I'm tired, and it causes me to have resentment towards her because I have to pay all the bills, cook, clean, while she just sits there. I also try to have conversations about putting her into a senior assisted living facility so she's not isolated and I can have my life. She says that she will get depressed if that happens or just gets angry and says "I can't believe you would do that" She has started wandering, and I have to micromanage things she does, like use the microwave because I had to replace 3 microwaves over her putting things in there and setting the timer for 5 hours. I am just exhausted and honestly didn't ask to be a caregiver to her. She's my mom yes, but my life has been put on hold to take care of her and it's causing me to dislike her. Because anytime I try to talk about my life or wanting to have my own life her response is "Don't forget to take care of me" I don't know what to do, or how to navigate through this, so any advice or any personal experiences would be helpful.
If she doesn't own a home to sell, apply for Medicaid and get her placed in Skilled Nursing care that way. She'll have a safe place to live 24/7 and 3 hot meals a day, and you'll get your life back, which is long overdue.
Best of luck to you.
I certainly can understand the resentment and anger about your situation. The sad part of your situation is you are losing your youth to caregiving.
I wish you all the best trying figure this out. Don't waste any time putting a plan in place. Tick tock.
There are many reasons for this .
Money being one ( who will pay mams bills ) but also one can feel so guilty ,responsible and anxious by leaving your mum .
Also this is a young person who is at an important stage of life where they may want a family of their own and time is not on their side .
I wish you the best of luck .
Please put yourself first while putting your mam in a good facility.She may like it .
You are in a very difficult situation and I feel for you .
When you get to the point of picking one they will probably require a few things. In my mom's state it's a form signed by the doctor and a TB test. The facility will also send someone to assess your mom for themsef. Hope that helps, come back when you have updates or questions.
You are working full time, so clearly your mother is left alone 40 hours a week. She is capable then, of self-caring. Notify her of when you will be leaving and rent an apartment for yourself.
If you have trouble managing above then seek some therapy with a good, in person, cognitive therapist. Be certain not to trip into someone who practices "talk therapy" as I suspect you've talked about this enough and now what's required is a determination and willingness to step away from talking and into taking action outside of the normal habitual actions you take daily.
Wishing you the best of luck. No one but YOU has any control over your choices in this situation.
No more dragging your feet! Visit some likely care facilities. Look at ones that start out with assisted living and will move the resident to a memory care unit when it's necessary. I believe memory care is necessary for your mom right now, but the assessment team will evaluate mom and let you know how they can best care for her. They will have ideas about how to evaluate her without her raising a fuss. They do this all the time. You have POA, so you are in charge now.
You may think that you need to work mom around to the idea of care, but she clearly isn't reasoning well, has no idea of the care she needs now or eventually will need, and expects you to sacrifice yourself on the Altar of Mom. No. This isn't going to happen. You're going to stage a silent revolt.
Personal experience: I was concerned about husband who needed a higher level of care and was going to be moved to a different memory care that could provide it. I told him that we were going to be visiting with a nurse at snack time, and we gathered around a table for four in the facility. She started a friendly conversation and typed on her laptop. He began to eat his glasses. He was completely at ease, she had no trouble determining his level of need, and soon he went to the new place. He is content, has made friends, enjoys his days, and though he is very sick now, he knows the aides love him. Considering the problems he has, his life couldn't be better.
And another thing - he was in the first memory care because he'd begun wandering. He soon ended up in a hospital ER miles away from our house as a John Doe. I'd been sure he couldn't get out of the house due to extreme measures I took to lock him in. No harm done, but he willingly got into a car with strangers who called an ambulance. Anything could have happened; this was on a busy highway.
Don't let your mom become Jane Doe! Place her soon.
She would also try to cook then forget about it and burn pans which then had to be thrown away. Her food actually did catch fire one time when she was very distracted but fortunately her IL cottage had a smoke alarm which was connected with the fire department directly.
I dreaded visiting her because all I did during my visits was work and our once great relationship was getting pretty bad. I was hesitant to move her to MC but she was not safe being alone at any time. Now she is happier than she has been in quite a while and I have my life back. I do visit her often and take her out to go places but I don’t have to worry about cleaning and doing other chores around her house.
You are too young to be devoting your life to your mother’s care. I am in my late 60’s and retired but I still needed more time for me. You have put so much of your life into caring for her that you won’t have anything to fall back on when she is no longer around. I have close friends who understand what I am going through because they are at the same stage of life, though most have recently lost their parents. Your peers, for the most part, can’t understand how much work you are doing. You need a chance to do things with friends and enjoy yourself while you are young. You may find, like I did, that moving your mother to MC is the best thing for both of you!
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