He lives with us and has his own small apt. It is still a huge drain on my family. My father is depressed, angry and ALWAYS negative. It is a mental drain. He can still get around but it is very limited these days. He has post polio syndrome and it affects his mobility. I’m just feeling burnt out. I can’t go on a vacation with my boys. We can’t leave him alone due to his paranoia. If he is alone and I try to go do something I come home to a pity party and made to feel guilty about being able to leave the house and have a life. So now I don’t do anything to avoid this grief.