She has been diabetic for years, has survived 2 bouts with breast cancer, has osteoporosis, and refuses to take insulin shots even though the pills and her diet are not working the best for controlling her A1C. She does not drive and I get her groceries, which I am partially to blame for her not eating well when I get her ice cream now and then. She is not very mobile, uses walker most times, and it seems like I am working my best to keep her going when she seems like that "when the good Lord is ready he will take me no matter if I take shots or not". Now that she has some mild retinopothy starting, she now has to see a specialist. who knows what he going to suggest and to top it off, I have a brother 1/2 hour away, retired and seems more interested in his 2 day volunteer work than coming up and helping with relieving some of my (and hubby) stress. Not to mention that our dad is in nursing home with dementia for the last 5 years and brother has only seen him 2 times, but I take mom in every week. I feel like I am getting burned out some days that I could scream, but have cried several times. just need to vent.