My mother headed off to bed early this evening. She said she wasn't feeling well, and indeed she did look miserable. To be honest, she hasn't felt good and has been miserable every minute of every day since I've been here and probably before. I've been here almost five years. I wonder how she keeps going on, feeling so miserable. And to be honest again, living with her has been very, very hard. I must have been terrible in a past life to have earned this.