Shalom, so very sorry you are feeling so very burned out by it all. Sounds as though you have no specifics to ask us, and just wanted to express that everything feels like it is piling on right now.
Short of placing an elder whose care is way too much for you on a 24/7 basis (I am a nurse and I never could have attempted such a thing), I don't know what to tell you. Respite has been suggested here, and that might at least let you come up to the surface for air, and to think of what you need to do in the future.
https://www.agingcare.com/questions/caregiver-wont-seek-help-for-herself-and-has-rage-episodes-we-relieved-her-of-the-caregiving-respons-482443.htm?orderby=recent
It sounds to me as though both of your parents belong in a long term care setting. Can that be arranged?
You (or at least I) worried less once my mom was in a caring facility with 24/7 people on staff who could deal with emergencies.
Short of placing an elder whose care is way too much for you on a 24/7 basis (I am a nurse and I never could have attempted such a thing), I don't know what to tell you. Respite has been suggested here, and that might at least let you come up to the surface for air, and to think of what you need to do in the future.
I wish you luck.
Old age can certainly be cruel, no doubt. Both to the older person and to the people who care for them.
How old is your mom? You? What are the living arrangements? How long have you been her caregiver?