My mom passed away 9 days ago on 12/1. I'm absolutely crushed. I was there to hold her hand when she took her last breaths. She lived here with me and my husband for 5 1/2 yrs. I'm the only child from my mom & dad. She was ready to go, my brain knew it in some way...but my heart couldn't understand it...she talked to my dad who passed in 1997 and she talked to her mom too in her last days. She was so frail..so small and it feels like it happened instantly. My life revolved around her for the last 5 1/2 years since she came to live with us...now what do I do? She is every where.., medicine reminders, the food she liked, her snacks, paperwork. She had COPD..and fought for every breath...I'm happy she is no longer suffering (I feel so guilty about that), because she talked about how she was tired and done and didn't want to go thru this anymore. My grief is so complicated.